But when I found out last week that I have to move to Carlow, I was pretty surprised. It really honestly wasn't on my plans. Probably thats a fault on my side of things, you know neglecting to pay attention when your filling out your CAO.
So things are going to be hard for the first while. On the positive side of things I get to move out for a while.... is that positive I dunno.
Like will I move out and then ... I'm not saying I will be home sick. But do you know that feeling of home you have, of the house that you spent your life in. Where you grew up. Thats a different feeling of home. And I'm just wondering if I will loose that feeling if I go. That when I come back my house that I grew up in wont be "home" anymore. And then I end up being homesick for a place that doesn't exist.
I think thats what's bothering me now. Like currently I don't have this comfort that im used to, ever since I found out that I have to move. There has just been something nagging in the back of my head thats been preventing me to relax .. its not anxiety or anything.
Its like I know I'm on the border of major change, and I'm edging closer to the point of no return... well if anything I'm past the point of no return. And I am already missing the home feeling even though I haven't moved out yet.
I suppose its all a bit sudden, I just have to adjust. Things change. Life moves fast. And its best to embrace what you have, because it never stays the same.
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